It started like a dream
An uncontrollable one
You were the first of many
bursting in without warning
your patience never wore thin
While breaking my barricade
that others failed to see
time passed on and on
your secret smiles to me
your constant teasing,
our friendly banter,
our meaningful arguments,
even our epic little fights
our back and forth
you trying your best
me trying to resist
while knowing inside
you’ve started being everything
everything I’ve ever wanted
you tore my walls apart
there’s a saying
that whatever’s forbidden
you only like more and more
cos that’s what this is
completely and utterly forbidden
Every moment I try
Everyday I pray
But none of these have eased
the feeling growing deeper
As time passes on
I tell myself I’m weak
But I know
Only when it comes to you
Someone once told me
When you love someone
You give them power to destroy your soul
I’ve given up my soul
Cos I know by now
I’m irrevocably in love
With everything about you
You’re not just “the one”
you’re the only one
Cos you’ve ruined me
For anyone else
Cos none compares to you
I try and try
People tell me
There’s lot of other men outside
Just pick one
They think I’m weird
They think I’m picky
they can’t seem to understand
I can’t also understand
that you’ve raised my standard
Far above anyone
One day I woke up
with the realization
that there’s someone else
have you ever seen glass exploding
Into million tiny pieces
have you ever seen the night
A dark night
A lonely night
A cold night
If you haven’t
I’ve got the perfect replica
In my heart
My dark heart
My lonely heart
My cold heart
My shattered heart
My disintegrating heart
You tell me I’ve changed
But this is just me
trying and trying
to gather the broken pieces of my heart
I realized something
No matter how hard I try
I can’t pick up every single piece
Cos you’ve stolen some from me
So I ask you
Can I have my heart back?
Can I have my smile back?
Can I have my soul back???
I try to be brave
I try to gather every piece I can
Cos there’s nothing else to do
than to keep trying
I remember those feelings
the same feelings
That got me in this mess
The same feelings
that changed everything
The same feelings
that ruined me utterly
the same feelings
That are now caged inside
The same feelings
Fighting hard
To be let out
the same feelings
You seem to miss
The same feelings
that reminds me constantly
Of your soothing voice
your teasing smile
your warm touch
and the butterflies and tingles
that seem to erupt
at the slightest sight of you
The same feelings
that have died inside
Never to be awakened anymore
And when you seem to be back
those same feelings tell me that
It’s too late
Too too late.
